i felt like i am not me anymore. i became so quite this days. even my friends said that. i don't know whats happening to me. this weeks is a frustrating week. so many things happened. my heart got broken down. ughh.. i cried for it. this the first time i felt like this. i cried for a man. usually, when i had a crush on someone i didn't feels anything when he rejected me but i felt the pain in my heart when he did it. i actually loves this guy. i had a crush on him for at least 2 years. and i also read this one quote  "if you had a crush on someone for almost a month, it is not crush anymore, it is love." yes. i love this guy. i felt the pain when i think of him. but he was nice. we still in contact. we are still being friend. he wechat me last night. i'll wait for him but ihope that this feelings faded away. bak kata orang melayu," kalau ada jodoh, tidak kemana."